I have been trying and failing to get back to a place in my life where I felt better, where I was doing better. In fact, I have spent much energy over my lifetime doing this. And mostly it had to do with a time that I was eating better and working out more or in a state of mind and heart that was closer to God. As I was praying and reflecting this morning, I realized “I can’t go back.” And this quote from Return of the King came to my mind. This line has always made me emotional, always stuck out to me with a deep meaning. Although I didn’t realize my personal meaning until today.
“Do not remember the former things,
Nor consider the things of old.”
I can’t go back. My path in life has been traveled. Along the way, threads are falling off of the garments I have worn, the path is riddled with debris that has fallen off of me as I have lived. The overgrown weeds and thorns of complications, the flotsam and jetsam of all of the choices I have made. When I look back, I cannot see the beginning of my path, or even the point in the path where I long to be.
“Let your eyes look straight ahead,
And your eyelids look right before you.”
In order to move forward, I need to look forward. The path before me is clear! It is untraveled, without scars and blemishes. God has much to say about where my focus and walk should be. Trying to see and travel through a long and disarranged passage vs. moving forth on one that is clear should be a no-brainer.
“Brethren, I do not count myself to have apprehended; but one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead,”
I cannot go back, but I can press on towards a new destination. And the place I end up may even be better than what I have been longing for.