The Narrow, Slippery Path

Any time I make a decision to do something that would please God, I step onto a path that is both narrow and slippery. In the beginning of this year, I made a decision to BE the woman I was meant to be – that I longed to be. I vowed to lose weight, eat healthy, de-clutter my house and my life, and other things.

I started off great, as I usually do. At the beginning of March I had lost a total of 11.2 lbs. – which is great being that my goal was to lose 5 lbs a month. I was recording my weight loss at the beginning of each week in my daily planner. I was on track and feeling productive. But something has happened this past week – and if I continue to ignore it (as I have done in the past), I will find myself completely off the path I have chosen, and headed down the wrong direction.

“Ponder the path of your feet,
And let all your ways be established.
Do not turn to the right or the left;
Remove your foot from evil.” Pr. 4:26-27

This path I am on is extremely slippery, and I know I have slipped. I picture myself on a narrow path at the top of a cliff. If I do not look ahead keep my eyes on God, with my feet being firmly planted on that path – I will veer towards the edge and lose my footing. My current position is that I have fallen off but grabbed the edge of the cliff and am struggling to climb back up. I could just let go. I know there is another path within a safe falling distance. I will not get injured. And, in fact, it’s a much easier path to walk on, quite honestly. It’s wide – and not really slippery. But before I do that yet again, before I allow myself to lose my way – I am confronting this. Can my admission save me? Not really. But my confession can. I cry out to God, my Heavenly Father! “Help me! Please pull me up, back onto the path that I know You want me on. Back where you are. Where I trust in You. Where I am not distracted from the things you want me to do. I am sorry, and I don’t want to do this anymore!”

“From the end of the earth I will cry to You,
When my heart is overwhelmed;
Lead me to the rock that is higher than I.” Ps 61:2

Doing good things is good. It’s great. But I get relaxed in my resolve. I didn’t record my weight this past Monday. Because it showed gain, and not a loss. I tend to do that, subconsciously thinking the problem will go away if I ignore it. My workouts have not been as strong and focused. They have been more of a “let’s get this over with” sort of thing. And my personal devotion time has been kinda the same this week. There it is! That’s what it boils down to. When I am emotionally distant from God, whether I am still reading devotions and the Word or not – my world is not right! Where I am spiritually affects where I am in every other aspect of my life. And so here I hang on the edge of my cliff.

I have gained 2.6 lbs. I know, I know – some of you will say that’s not bad, etc. But what have I lost? I lost a whole week of my life. I lost my close connection to my Lord. I lost my resolve. I was trying on the outside, but with no results because on the inside – my heart was not in it.

I lost my footing.

I am making this public, calling myself out. Crying out to God. Because what is in my darkness needs to be exposed to the Light. Then it loses it’s power.

By the grace of God, I will look up towards heaven, and see Him – holding out His hands to me, waiting to pull me up and plant me on the right path again.

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
And lean not on your own understanding;
In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He shall direct your paths.” Pr 3:5-6

I pray this post encourages you, if you are in a place of complacency – to cry out to God.

Psalm 145:14

Blessings,

Teresa

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Resolute Resolutions

Happy New Year! I can hardly believe that half of January has already passed into history. By this time, many people have already forgotten about their New Year’s Resolutions. And that is what I want to talk about.

Nowadays, New Year’s Resolutions mean nothing. They are empty promises made to self just for the sake of speaking something . They should really be called, “Things I’d like to do this year – but most likely won’t.” Honestly, I can’t remember a time when these things were taken seriously. I’d be sitting around, just before midnight and people around me would start spouting off their resolutions. They all sounded really good. Even mine – every year I spoke up it was “lose weight, draw closer to God”. Things I thought would please or impress.

Has the word resolution lost all it’s meaning, as so many words in our language today? The root word is resolve. That means to bring an end to a problem. So, if I make a resolution to lose 20 lbs – then at the end of that year, my 20 lb problem should be resolved. If I make a resolution – to “resolve” to eat healthy; I have decided firmly, I have determined to, I have made a resolution to do that thing.

To be resolved is to be resolute, determined, purposeful, firm, unwavering, steadfast, inflexible, unyielding, unrelenting. You get the picture?

So then, as I make a resolution this year – I am not viewing it as something I’d like to do if my time allows, or if I am temporarily inclined.

I am resolute in my commitment. I will not waiver or yield. I will remain steadfast and determined; working relentlessly towards my goals.

A Goal is a Dream with a Deadline

Isn’t this cool? I actually took this picture. Clouds are my favorite.

 

I have many resolutions this year. There are about twelve on my list. Most of them require me to not be “me”. I am asking a lot of myself this year. I want to BE the type of person who will declutter her house, clean out her garage, let go of some collectibles. I want to BE a person who makes the time to exercise, plan healthy meals, and actually lose those 20+ lbs. I want to BE the person who blogs at least 2X a week, and keeps a life plan book. All of this goes against the grain of my creative brain and procrastinating ways. But I don’t care.

What really made me plant my foot firmly is the lifeplan book. I wanted one so badly. But I kept telling myself that it would be a waste of money, and that I wouldn’t use it. Because, after all – I know how I am. And then I thought to myself, “How ridiculous! I WANT to BE the person who uses this organizational tool, so BE it!” In other words – “JUST DO IT!” So, I ordered the planner and am using it, and so far I LOVE IT! It helps me to get my plans and to-do lists out of my head and onto paper, where I can see them. And better yet – I can cross off the stuff I have completed, which is no small sense of accomplishment to me!

My word for the year is “BE

Some synonyms for be are: remain, stay, last, continue, survive, endure, persist, prevail

It’s used to indicate the identity, qualities, or condition of  a person or thing.

I will BE resolute

I will BE determined

I will BE purposeful

I will BE firm

I will BE unwavering

I will BE steadfast

I will BE inflexible

I will BE unyielding

I will BE unrelenting

A HUGE part of this change in me will come from drawing nearer to God. The time I devote to spending time in His Word, in prayer, and praise will shape me into the woman who is able to do all of these things. My mind and heart will desire the things that He desires.  I will be equipped. He will be the strength in my weakness. And I will become the very best version of me ever.

To humans belong the plans of the heart, but from the Lord comes the proper answer of the tongue.

All a person’s ways seem pure to them, but motives are weighed by the Lord.

Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and he will establish your plans.

Proverbs 16: 1-3

What about you? How do you feel about New Year’s resolutions? Did you make any? And if you did, how do you plan to accomplish them?

Teresa

 

 

 

P.S. The planner I purchased is the Erin Condren LifePlanner. Using the link I provided in the left sidebar, you can visit her site, sign up, and save $10 on your first order! 

 

 

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